2020 Ramblings

Happy holidays, everyone! I hope you all are staying warm and most importantly, healthy. Can you believe we’re just a few short weeks away from Christmas? Is it just me or does it feel like 2020 flew by? I’m not mad about it, though. Bring on 2021. We’re all so ready for it.

The holidays are certainly looking different this year. We typically either travel up to Rhode Island and Massachusetts to see family or they come down here, but for obvious reasons our family get togethers are postponed for now. Better to be safe than sorry, right? Maybe that means we can have a Thanksgiving/Christmas 2.0 Celebration in July when the weather is nice and the vaccine is ready. That sounds ideal to me.

My friends and I have a similar mindset regarding our birthdays this year as well. We all turned 26 within the past few months, but have decided that 2020 doesn’t count. So really, we’re 25 pt. 2! Speaking of, having my old high school buddies around has been a silver lining of the pandemic. Some of them have moved back home for a while during COVID and it’s been nice all having the chance to slow down and reconnect — even if from six feet apart sometimes.

2020 has been a crazy, different, and scary year for everyone. For me, it’s felt very confusing and frustrating and I know I’m not alone in this. I felt as though my life was pretty much ‘on hold’ for half of 2017, and most of 2018 and 2019 as well as I rehabbed and recovered from multiple surgeries. Then, right when I was starting to feel strong and somewhat like myself again a pandemic hit … forcing me (and everyone else) to hit the pause button yet again. For the disability community and higher-risk individuals, it’s been an especially isolating year. I’m constantly asking myself: Am I being too cautious? Not cautious enough? Ugh.

Hopefully, things will start to turn around in the new year and the constant uncertainty and anxiety will go away. Obviously, things won’t miraculously go back to ‘normal’ when the ball drops to ring in 2021. There will still be dark months ahead and hard work to be done. We will have a vaccine soon, though, and a new leader soon as well. A leader that believes in science and doctors and cares about people of all races, sexualities, abilities (!!!), etc. There are things to look forward to on the horizon. I have to stop and remind myself of this often.

Wishing you all a healthy, happy holiday season and a great start to 2021! Thank you for reading.